i can’t forget you ( just the lies ) Ch 4

melanoradrood:

Two years of his life, just gone… and now Cassian doesn’t even realize that he broke up with her, that he ripped her heart out. Two years gone, and every day, he can’t even remember her telling him that they broke up, and that he never proposed.

Rebelcaptain Modern Amnesia!Cassian Fic
Word Count: 7106
Rating: Mature
Warnings: ALL TAGS APPLY. PLEASE READ THE TAGS.

When Cassian wakes up, he feels… disoriented. His arm is in a cast, his leg is sore, and when he looks beside him, there’s a woman, dark hair like Jyn’s, but that’s not a surprise. He has a type, after all, when he tries to forget everything. A glance at the clock tells him how late it is, and he lets out a groan – fuck, he overslept. There’s a tablet beside the bed, and he wrinkles his brow, confusion hitting him even harder.

How much did he drink last night?

Pressing the play button, he stares at the screen, and then freezes, because it’s Jyn’s face, it’s Jyn’s voice, it’s-

He watches the video the whole way through, and he has to go back, watch the flash of the ring, can’t believe what he’s seeing. He looks for his phone, doesn’t see it, but he does pull up the calendar app on the tablet – it’s fucking 2018. He doesn’t remember past… Well no, he remembers 2018, he remembers heading out to the bar, he remembers… a bright light and…

Fuck, that was two months ago.

There’s a shift in the body beside him, and Cassian realizes in horror who it is. He sees the ring on her hand, sees the ring, and she’s wearing it, she’s wearing the ring he bought for her fucking years ago, had been fighting with himself for ages to propose, and –

He can remember it so clearly, can remember sinking to one knee, asking her to marry him, can remember… he can’t remember… no, he remembers her telling him no, her telling him that his past, the things he had done, that he was too broken. Yeah, that’s right. Two years ago, he had proposed, and she had turned him down.

Now, she’s laying in his bed, wearing the ring that he had gotten rid of.

She shifts again, and Cassian can see it, her body tensing, a sign that she’s waking up, and then she stretches, her feet hitting the floor, her going to get out of bed.

She doesn’t seem to realize he’s awake until she turns around to grab her phone, and freezes.

“Cassian… Sorry, I must have slept in. Did you already watch the-”

“The hell is this?” he asks, and his voice his rough, too rough.

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